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Monday, December 14, 2009

Ive tried to be the best,

but i think i just couldnt be one...

Its ok to try people says,

rather then being defeated

I may not even the best for you,

but i tried...

You can say whatever just to make yourself happy...

i just keep shut...

Cause if there is,

you sure gonna be like,

shoot every of my words,

I know its bad to blog my worries with you here...

But im at ease if i blog it all here...

atleast i can rest my mind

Though i never ask for whats happening,

i still got scolded or even,

when i never even do anything wrong also,

get scolded...

So you think im your punching bag

to satisfy your anger?

so be it...

i let you do whatever makes you happy...

Cause i love you...

Maybe im at fault for not being there,

but i think over abt it,

i never let you down at all before...

Why do i deserve all this,

i dont know...

You just dont know whats my worries...

you dont feel the way i feel things...

i feel things with my full emotion...

for whatever i do,

i think of you first rather then going on...

Be greatful im not like those bad girlfriend that we have ever seen before...

those who goes with other guys behind your back...

im not like that...

Im not a rag doll nor a thing without a heart...

you cannot do to me as what you like to...

like you say,

i always never explains things better

cause you think im already at fault...

so be it... yea yea...

im at fault...

and everything is my fault....

and its always been my wrong...

Never yours...

its always been mine...

thats what you always think...

and you say that im grown up,

i should think the way i aged...

Helplessly,

speechless,

bored,

got enough,

gotten myself a swollen eye...

One after another...

from pricked eyes, to itchy and now to swollen...

Whats next?

Gone blind?

Saturday, December 12, 2009

One Two Three Not Only You And Me..

hahaha..

thats the song ive been listening to nowadays..

Love it! Lover her!

She the best!

Hahahaha...

Work is ok...

Found another job which im really enjoyed working...

Now been closer to Epul and Nazri...

Hahahahaha...

that Epul bday is coming...

and yet hes been merajok-ing here and there...

But nvrm la...

let me see till when he can do this ;)

As for my dear boo2,

I love you!

so much!

Amie love you sweet!

Will update more soon!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

damn to those guys who fool us!

whatever he did i mean...

they sucks!

they should atleast be happy with us

that really care and

love them and

gave them the best...

see lah...

what they do?

they mess up things here and there...

even the cats know how to appareciate and stay still...

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

I Ace's My Another Exams...
92% over 100%
Am very happy...
And thats the good news...

The bad news is,
Im sick...
So sick to do anything...
Im so weak...
Should i still go to work tomorrow?
-_-

Temperature updates
38.7Degrees

Saturday, November 14, 2009

F4 IS OUT OF TOWN!!!

WE GONNA ROCK A TOUR!!!

YEAY!!!

Goodbye people...
Please takecare of each others ok?

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Hello to everyone...
Especially to Jon/Guest/MITCHY

be happy that i blog about you guys...
wanna be famous?
and lets be famous ok?
wanna play?
im on the game...

I know small kids love playing games...
i know who you are,
keep on going if you want too...
no one stopping...
am not deleting it away...

If you are so clever and manage to comment again,
do so...
im happy if theres like um... new friends
haha...

You all are just those who dont even CLOSE to me
hahaha... thats called something :)
maybe i do owe you something?
do i?
hahaha!
i dont think so...

People whom know me,
whoever it may be,
KNOWS HOW STRONG MY ENGLISH IS....
Such a waste of time if you say im not...

Im not acting nor what,
but i ACE'S my ENGLISH...
dont be jealous if you guys arnt ok?

Ok la...
Bye blahblahblah People...
Be happy to read more...
YEAY!

And last thing,
before i end,
MY BLOG = MY BUSINESS

You = NOBODY ;)
You are not wanted here...
Hope you know it yourself...
Shameful!
make a mess here and cowardly put a fake name...
MONKEYS!
Bye!

Haha! Im happy someone is JEALOUS of me! ;)
Oh! I love you guest for telling me you are jealous
Thanks! YEAY!
keep on commenting..
Cause i did not delete your comment away...
i wanna let the whole world know that you ENVY ME!
and oh!
WHATS YOUR REAL NAME?
COWARD eh?
haha!
The 2nd track in my song list, is DEDICATED TO YOU!
happy?
Awww! Be glad BITCH! ;)

First of all,
let me wish two people that i call GEREK PEOPLE!

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY ANSARI

Have fun on your birthday...
am im very sorry for not being there to celebrate it...
gotta work la bro...
So i see you at work soon
Takecare=)

_________________________________

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK BALKIS

See you this weekends...=)
Lets fish it all out!
Yeay!

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Ok, besides being happy
about my gerek people's birthday,
im utterly sad...
kinda speechless,
but i think by blogging,
could atleast make me feel better...

Oh well,
i dont like the way my life have been now
im always like stress up...
feeling fuck-up
at the same time
i dont even enjoy every moment
all i can say is,
im confuse with all the obstacles in my life
nothing that ive wish come up right
and nothing ive done that make things fine

i dont even know why im born
and i didnt know whats my mission in life...
i seems not getting things goes the way i wanted,
but hey!
im still fine!
act like im fine!
all those fake fronts, i dont even know when i can stop it

Let the feeling i feel inside,
killing me softly...
watch the days goes by...
day and night,
hours by hours,
minutes by minutes
seconds by seconds
(SIGH)
why things around me,
make me feel like giving my whole life up
and put an ending towards it

how can i face you when i ever see you again?
how can i act infront of you
and pretend nothing happens?
do things with a smile infront of you
and all?

Why its getting complicated!
Why its like getting out of hand!
Why on earth we end up like this!

Its already wreck...
Its already bad...
Its already fated...
Its already like.... GONE!!!

Another you,
makes me feel more horrible
Another me,
makes me dying!

Moral of the stories is,
let my life,
do and get
in anyway,
everyday,
and let it goes on...

When its gonna end,
only God(ALLAH) knows...

And as for me,
i shall pretend every seconds of my life,
smiling,
and faking whats there to fake about!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Hey...
Im back by surprise...
haha...
sorry for not blogging much...
cause sumhow if i blog,
i feel like no one will read my shit out here...
am i right?

I dont know why ive been wanting to post this up,
but heres sumting which i wanna post. =)

Eqin is,
☮ bad in speaking malay cause she staggered a lot
☮ shes hyperly good in English (HYPERLY IS MY OWN WORD and ITS NOT IN THE DICTIONARY ASS! LOLS)
☮ she can speak Mandarin as well
☮ have a passion is IN singing
☮ have a good skill in cooking
☮ adores fishing and prawning so much till she doesnt even wanna go home
☮ she love new friends
☮ superbly independent
☮ shes effingly friendly(Serious)
☮ she hates sick minded people
☮ she tried to be happy when she know she can hardly do
☮ shes sick, everywhere sick
☮ someone you may think rich but shes not
☮ shes just a part-time csa and freelance modelling
☮ she laugh like hell when someone make hilarious joke
☮ she tried everything she can do to be successful
☮ she will never forgets who she borrowed money from
☮ she will definitely pay all her debts, but bit by bit
☮ she hopes people would give her a chance to explain of her misdeed
☮ she felt sorry for the poor and also those cats died on the road
☮ she wish that one day God(Allah) will make her rich by a decent way

And thats,

ME!!! (LOVE ME OR HATE ME?)

AND OH! I DO SPEAK GOOD ENGLISH!
ITS NOT A MATTER OF WHAT I TYPE HERE REFLECTS ON MY ENGLISH DUMB-ASS!
OR WHATEVER YOU CALL IT BITCH! ;)

Heres some random pictures that ive took...
I never even do any editing on it...
but it just turn out to be perfect and i like it...
=)

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Happy 24th Bithday Nazri
May All you wishes come true...
keep growing taller ok?
LOL!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Love stories

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Friday, October 16, 2009

Hello!!!

Mi nombre es Eqin!
hahaha!
Ive been learning Spanish now
just for general knowledge...
I Know i have like been away for like so long...
Well, im fine...
Dont worry friends...=)

I wanna updates on my medical condition first!=)
The doctor said that my condition has improve,
and may soon stop medication,
treatment,
checkups,
blood testing and etc,
next year 2010 JUNE!
im soooo looking forward to the day... yeay!

And yes....
im finally like left 6mths in school life!

And now happily on attachment

And i am waiting for my graduation day...
so im gonna do some countdown!

hahahahahaha!!!

Im starting to plan my future as well...
whether to continue and go on for further studies or,
working life...
Ive plan 3 stuff and i dont know which one to choose...
maybe you guys can help me up with it?

PLAN 1
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Continue Higher Nitec In Business Studies
and continue working part-time

PLAN 2
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Work full-time and save up for diploma in Business studies

PLAN 3
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Working Life and thats end of school

So, what should i choose?

I cant even make my own decision...
hence i need you guys to tell me what should i do and pick which plan...
Although im still keen to sch, yet,
im unsure what my future gonna turns out like
So i seek your help friends.

Ok life is still good,
although there are so much ups and down...
but well, its manageable
Ive been working hard now...

People at work,
mostly new staff...
so many of them...
GOSH!
and many being terminated due to cheating and stuff
its scare me!
Im scared of being influenced!
but hey! Im sooooo not gonna ate the bait!

Ok let me end it with some pictures which i just edit before blogging
Check it out!
Nice huh?
hehehe! Till then people...

and oh! Dear baby boy,
I LOVE YOU!

Monday, October 5, 2009

First of all,
let me say.....

To my dearest baby boy,
Azizul Hakim

been having a great journey in live with you around...
Love you to the fullest,
and hope we can never be apart...
Insyaallah... Amin....

Friday, September 25, 2009

I love hubbie...
i always never fail to love him...
Although his past and my past are just way to bitter,
for each of us to swallow,
i still love him...

Nothing can ever make me stop loving him,
although there are sooo many ppl who are just running towards me,
and wanting, pleading and crying to just be with me...
Sorry, i just couldnt entertain...

And im loyal to my bf,
so i dont "BITCH" around like "PEOPLE" out there...
I am me, if you are not happy,
its your problem...
I am unique in many ways then YOU!=D
So i dont bother...
I love you to the end of my time...
HUGS!

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I miss going out with Faza...
Gila2 with her...
Thanks for buying me the cotton on long sleeves.
I LOIKE la...
hahahaha.... i wonder how have you been and hows new work?

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Work have been good...
Too many new ppl...
all the old one kena terminated due to CHEATING...
i miss those bunch of idiots sometimes...
cause they made my day...
But sad, you guys are not there animore...
Takecare ok?

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Next plan for F4,
Me, BF(Hakim), Nazri and Kenny
is heading to MERSING KELONG MALAYSIA
for vacation...
we all are all excited to go there...
and really cant wait for it!

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Lastly,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN
TO ALL MY MUSLIM FRIENDS
FROM WHOLE WIDE WORLD...

Bye ALL!